downpour

it started with a mere instax camera
to a jolly sweet chocolate house dinner
followed by a joyful night of dancing fountain
to a exhausting hike of broga
to a lovely sunset of pd
to a nice long run around putrajaya
to a sky floor in subang
to a fast adrenalin rush on rollerblade
continue with light melawati kebab in front Putra mosque
with a mouth full of white grape mint flavor for wrap up

-things you promise
-things i asked
-things we want
-things dont happen
-us happened
-separation happens
-you and i happen
we dont last, because i'm not equipped to handle heartbreak, again and again
promises after promises
deals after deals
paycheck after paycheck
and siblings after siblings

i am sorry
truly am

call me a hypocrite or just plain stupid
some people like babies, i see a fragile time bomb that my hand couldn't handle

its been  7 years
i've known you for 9

if this dont work, go away. please

used to

you know what, when i'm still a young girl, i used to dream of having grand wedding. to have everything a girl could dream of a man. rich and famous. cars and the cards. luxury and everything.

but now, it dont even matter. i barely think about marriage at this age. as i grow i realised that only I can make myself happy. I can't be satisfied with me. so i'll tend to strive harder.

i just want to say that,
i enjoy my hiking trip
i almost fell and die
i'm a tough girl who help this kid twice my size to hike
the weather are freaking cold
the journey are hard
i cant cook rice using mass tin
i can assemble a tent
i prefer having sun-kissed skin than white finger syndrome
i have cramp on the first night
i have bruises all over my legs
the guiders are very helpful

i just thought somebody will asked. yeah, somebody would actually care about what i'm doing.
not solely about her work
about his family problem

then i realised, nobody actually gives crap when you're okay. u got the attention when u excel, or you failed. not when you're okay.
so i pickup the phone, and i've sign up for the diving course. let my 1.5k burnt. for my self-satisfaction.
yup, its finally all about me.
not about him and his family, about her and her job, or about anyone else. i'm finally realised saving money for marriage is a waste. i'm saving for me. I am not a waste.

i've changed baby. i've changed alot. if u asked why, let me tell you

KLCC fountain. thats it. :)

Fwd: Booty call

I woke up late. Sbb smlm i terlupa kunci jam. Then im late for my class. My lecturer pg td scary and i hate her.
2. So i kene buat construction assessment dkt site. But then, my group still x dpt any project. So we dont have anything to present on this thursday.
3. Cafe kolej i tutup
So this makcik charge me rm4.50 for nasi yg sgt sikit and sayur. Seriously??? X sdp pn dia masak.
4. I stay at lib during lunch time to stdy for today test. But i x sedar dah dkt 2jam i dkt lib, almost missed my second class.
5. I thought nk pergi lari ptg sbb stress la konon and try my new running shoes. End up i got a blister!!!!!!!!
6. Thought of calling my bf to tell all this, end up whatsapping (you) bcs my bf too busy to answ my call and rep my msg.
Done

real world

You know that some people can just open up to their parents their mom on every matter? Well, not me for sure. I hate crying in front of my parents. My mum to be exact. I always ‘enveloped’ my feelings and wrapped them nicely. I don’t know why.

I’m having problems with my final year project. It may seem small. Bu at first it means the world to me. I cant  cope with it. Almost breakdown and cry. I need to do 286 sample size. So I freak out. Typical me. But then, I just told zaidi everything (because he was the first person I saw). Then I realized my problem can be solved. I think so. Then I walked home. And kept on thinking about this. And suddenly I laugh. I laugh so hard, because finally I’m serious about study and I was worried about something important. And I don’t even feel any stress after that.

So I read on twitter, that they need to talk to their parents to ease their problems away. But not me, I cant call my parents when I’m stress. I’m prone to cry. And I cannot cry. Because I always believe that they have much more important things to be worried. But maybe because I’m just being egoistic. Then I just tell myself that none of the things I do will matter if I don’t get the job done. So I just suck it up, finished my work and sleep at 6.00am.

Case close, no tears, job well done J

selamat hari lahir

untuk tahun ketiga ini, saya mintak satu je.

tolong bawak pergi tengok fountain menari dekat klcc on my birthday. anyone.

i dont request for flowers, nor i want a shoes

i just want that moment to be us two

--tak kisah la us two tu siapa. kahkahkahkahkah

untuk cakap

hanya nak cakap
nak macbeth pink tu

hanya nak cakap
sampai bila nak perasan dekat dia tu

hanya nak cakap
when i'll find something more interesting to do

hanya nak cakap
sometimes life gave up on me because i choose too

hanya nak cakap
im bored right now

hanya nak cakap
seronok ke kene sanjung being pretty like other girls do

hanya nak cakap
nak share dengan siapa on my days, my things and other links if youre to busy with your works too


--balik swimming haritu
A: seronok la duduk tepi tasik camni. rasa calm gile kan. i can just sit here and watch this everyday
B: memang la. sebab kau lain sikit. pelik
A: lain macam mana?
B: sebab kau ni sebenarnya sentimental. ala ala romantik konon. very subtle beside your character
A:you sound so gayyyyy


-----subtle, sentimental, romantic.
gay

dah biasa

sebab dah biasa
aku dah tak rasa apa

sebab dah biasa
kita macam dah tak ada apa apa

sebab dah biasa
ego masing masing dah bermacam rupa

sebab dah biasa
masing masing bawak diri sampai dah tak jumpa

masih berharap
akan baik macam dulu kala

masih berharap
bukan sampai sini sahaja

masih berharap
percikan api dalam sejuk aku berduka

masih berharap
pengakhiran yang dipersetujui bersama

masih berharap
kau yang dulu ada macam biasa

tapi tak boleh tipu
kalau bila tak jumpa, dah kisah macam mana rupa

tapi tak boleh tipu
ruang dan waktu, kosong tak bertemu dah tak rasa jemu

tapi tak boleh tipu
usaha kau dah tak macam dulu, aku punya hati pun dah keras macam batu

tapi tak boleh tipu
kita sama salah, tapi masing masing tak mengaku

sampai bila
masing masing nak simpan rasa

sampai bila
nak text tapi cuma cari punca

sampai bila
masing masing tak nak mengaku dah tak jumpa hujung cahaya

sampai bila
diam seribu bahasa, mengharap faham diri sendiri sahaja

aku dah cakap apa aku rasa
sekarang giliran kau
harap kau baca



--sudah tak mengharap, jauh sekali kisah. sebab aku ada bila kau rasa kau perlu sesiapa. bukan aku sahaja.

mesmerizing

i always have a thing for younger boys. not in a perverted ways. being the youngest i always assume those naive cute juniors a somehow attractive. and i often think of myself as a cool big sister, mentally not physically of course.
then realising i'm on my final year here strike me hard. i dont want to leave this place. i like it here. everything i love is here. i can go to the pool, i can go for a walk, jog, the food is cheap, my friends are here, the public transport is okay.

then i remember all those overly attached senior that i used to tease. maybe they have this overly attachd syndrome while being the final year student here. then they choose to stay. i dont wanna stay here forever thats for sure. but i'm not sure if i'll be able to make new friends outside. i like it here. i like it here so much that it hurts everytime the thought of me leaving this place cross my mind.

they have this community that are accepting. and being one of them is easy for me as i'm just being myself. this loud voice, this drama attitude, this sloppy attire. im used to it, they used to it.

what if my new place wont be this accepting
what if my new friends think im to loud
what i my new colleuge doesnt like the way i dress
what if i'm actually stupid and cant survive real world
what if what not
i guess i just need to suck it up and grow some balls

and need to stop thinking that everything is a fairy tale journey.

there are monsters
cold mean monsters

but there are also angels
white fluffy good angels

but which one do i'll cross first?
we'll never know

--oh trust me, i did not intend to write this at this hour. i was being emo just now. and i need to write mean words

text and the underlying meaning

straight to the point. common conversation or texting for this swag university student

A: makan jom? 8.00pm
(i'm hungry for chicken. i cant eat maggi again. not second time for today)

A:lapar. (10pm onwards)
(i'm hungry and bored. more to bored i guess. but my brain doesnt know how to distiguish that. but dont worry, she can remember many parasite names)

A:bored. (11pm onwards)
(i have works assignment and fyp of course. but i wont do that. not today, tomorrow..... or any other day unless my supervisor release the kraken)

A:jom lepak. (10pm onwards)
(lets sit down watch people, being judgemental and eyed those cute juniors)

A: I'm sick (8.00 am onwards)
(not gonna go to class. unless prof zai's)

Izni: I'm having diarhea.
(absolutely that. cant be more straightforward)

negativity

ola adios amigos aku berambus.

alaa dont la act all cool like you never heard that before in your childhood. bleghh. BORINGGG

by the way, i just realised that i'm a negative person. not a pessimist type. just negative.
i always blabber about how i hate this, despise that,
(sudden humming sound in my ears right now. i'm getting deaf)
cont. and dont let me start about the complaining! i complaint alot!!! i started to think that my bf left me because i like to complaint. i always believe in hate at the first sight. not so romantic. i know.

but, neither of you know that i like to think alot too!! a whole lot of thinking unnecessary things until i dont even start with my final year project. see, how much i love all of the people around me. pay respect(or meal) will do. (bow now slaves!!)

case 1

My bf lost his mother because of cancer relapsed. and being on the edge for ages (2 months). so ive been on an eggshells since forever. (believe me i fell like forever for not being able to joke around him, to always be cautious of whatever I'm saying). and to make it better (worse perhaps) he is the oldest, so he does all the chores. and have to spend his time with his siblings. being a clingy gf as always, i cant stand the dont call now, cant text, need to do laundry, etc etc. so i burst out. seriously it was the worst, and i was doing my internship at that time, and it doesnt help much. when he wants to talk, I'm somewhere in the middle of nowhere doing electrical inspection. when I'm home, I'm too tired to even plug in my phone.

the end, thats how we become ex's.

okay,  not funny. and not real.

after I've started my semester, and talked to my friends they said that I'm ignorant bitch who doesnt deserve a good man like him. (i need new friend).

so i start thinking, a whole fu lot of it. and its strike me. what will i do if anything happened to mama. or my family. will i be buzy texting with my girlfriend pouring my heart out about how sad i am because of my loss? will i be calling my girlfriend hereafter to know about her day, about her exciting same routine inspection everyday? taking her lunch when i should be picking up my brother and sister from school? while i should worry about how can i manage to put food on the table with my one hand(he had an accident, almost cost him his fingers). and alottt more of thinking until i fall asleep. then i realise, sometime by not being there is the best thing that i can ever do to him. so i let loose. so i set him free. set his priority right. his family. not me, i still have both of my parents.

so i let that pass, slowly those negativity fades, no longer angry texts about how he should treat me, no more sarcasm comments about how he should his phone for ignoring my call.

I have never been happier
have a good life sweetheart. you earn it more than anyone else :)

---olive green converse, 6 years and more to come

funneyh

at lab today

A: *scrolling Eina Azman instagram watching her honeymoon video in Maldives
Me: jom makan
A: mana?
Me:Maldives
A: durhhhh
Me: Jomlah dengan Dato Gimik. *laughing so hard. ROFL.
--i'm literally rolling on the floor laughing
A: so funneyhhh! *straight face


-----I always thought im the funniest among us. and i guess couldn't executed it any better

relive the moment

my mom just being hip this afternoon. sending old photos of her children and nieces. i was admiring cute mini me just now until something strike me. (during my asr prayer, im not focus then i guess.) whateves.

what if i can relive those moments. those cute time while i was with my mushroom head, and everyone was telling how cute i am. just play all day long, sneak raw milo in a mug and share with my sister. can i just have those moments back?

i'm not saying that i hate this part (current) life with big decision and all. i know it'll come sooner or later. but i dont want to absorb that right now. i got to let loose, not worry a thing, and everything.

-i was suppose to get ready for a jog right now. but this is far more important.

my seniors are now working, or become a postgrad student.
my sister is working, giving me my first pocket money. yeayy. finally she has more money than i does. hahahha
my brother finally sort out his life
i dont get to have every meal with alex, okay its been 2 years. but you know what i mean.
my sekolah agama friends are married and engaged last week

changes.changes.changes.

not a big fan of that.

but i guess thats what happen in life. people changes, i've changes. do they have manual for this? i mean like a life guide for ages.

examples: life guides of 20-25 of ages



--i think they do have it, they're called experiences.

just write something

after typing the title i remember what i wanted to wrote since yesterday. not about abah and the cempedak case. that story deserve it own post.

along is getting married!! oh my. first marriage in the family. she's just like a sister to me. we basically grow up together. Mak brought us up together with my other siblings.

thus, with this technologies and all this high tech apps we have our own whatsapp group for the wedding things, (including my brother) and another group for holiday (only 3 of us exclude her own sister) no judging. we are all hyped about this marriage, with the dress, foods, and other preparations. each of us already have our own portfolio for the wedding. i'll be handling the candy booth together with her sister, my sister will do something with all the DSLR that we have, my brother will make himself useful with other things that i dont really care.

the ceremony will be held this december on both sides. however, the sambut menantu ceremony in sabah will be held a week after. yup. during my final week. what? of course i wll be attending both of the ceremony. its along okay, not someone unimportant. its not even a question whether i'll attend the wedding. durhhh.

no, my final exam time table still not out.
no, i dont have any idea when is my paper.

yes, they already booked the ticket.
yes, i need to aniaya someone so their doa will ber heard with no hijab (as doa orang ternaiaya selalu dimakbulkan. to pray that my final exam will be 31 dec onwards)

so happy with rm420 ticket have been paid with no surety that i'll be able to board the plane

hai

27/8/2014 12.56pm

So its been awhile since I wrote anything. Literally anything at all. This whole internship phase got me thinking. About my work, my self satisfaction, my wealth, what I really want in life. And browsing proudduck and any other career-job-well-done women blog and instagram doesn’t make any of them better. Being and over-thinker and over achiever always has its down side. ALWAYS I tell you.

 Internship never been better. Same old same old like 3 years ago. But sure this time I do get my self satisfaction meter a bit full. Being the only intern in this unit. Make me the spotlight of this team and also makes me their dumpster for all the reports and hanky panky doer. But whatever, doing unnecessary thing (which I thought at first) is actually a very good thing. And save my ass countless time during evaluation from my faculty supervisor. I couldn’t say how much I thanked my current supervisor for piling me with all those reports, graph, trends and every boring things you can do on excel. In other hand, I do sharpen my microsoft office skill. A LOT. I can draft 16 graph in less than 2 hours now.

Okay, im blabbering right now. I was suppose to write about something more interesting than internship. But I cant quite express it through my writing. Or because I just don’t have enough vocabs to support my story. Thus, this boring post happen.  I wanted to post this on blogspot, but my blog keep on updating itself with Viagra post and other sex related matter. Stupid blog. Horny I guess.

So, my colleuges has been out for breakfast since 8.30am. and still not in until now(12.43pm). but whatever, I don’t really care. Hahaha. Ignorant intern.

Its gonna be my final year this September. Being a bachelor student. Ahh, how time passed. I will miss being a student. When going to class is actually an options for me, meeting friends, eating,  swimming, and all those extra activities that I love to engaged myself in. I am not a girly-girl. Thus, this uneven skin tone, this not so lean body, this unmanicured nails, this awful wardrobe and many more. Although I thought it’s a good thing that im cool liddis, but deep inside I know that I need to change. I HAVE to change. Even if my nature of works doesn’t allowed me too, or doesn’t encouraged (I cant imagined rocking a stiletto on site) I believe I need to look good for myself. I have enough of (biasalah izni, so sloppy. Nak tau Izni yg mana, msti dia pakai baju besar with selekeh tudung) I have reputation liddat. But I just don’t know where to start or how to begin.  Just like when I wanted to start eat clean, when I started to work out, I know I need to do all of that but I just don’t know how. Yes, google stuff. Everything is just a click away. But u don’t just change everything by reading. Ass. I know that, because I read. A WHOLE LOT of reading. I know exactly everything. BUT, I cant figure how or when to start. I need courage, I need partner, I need companion. Just one or two. I do have friends now, but sometimes you don’t share all your insecurities with them. Its not them, its me. Because im not cool enough to show them my weakness. To show them how I’ll breakdown and cry. Because I’ve always been the muscle, the strength. But now I want to be the princess, the cotton, the pink.

I wanna

I wanna go ice skating
I wanna go bungee jumping
I wanna go scuba diving
I wanna go island hoping
I wanna go swimming
I wanna go jogging
I wanna go camping
I wanna go stargazing
I wanna go fishing
I want someone to wanna do this things with me
Just bcs he want to, not because i asked to

Because
I wanna laugh with him when i fall on the ice rink
I wanna scream with him when we make that jump
I wanna have him as my dive buddy
I wanna push him in the pool
I wanna race him to the finish line
I wanna cuddle with him under the moonlight
I wanna help him pull the rod
Most important thing,
I wanna have him in my world, like i would in his
Not because he asked me to, but because i want to

If thats too much to asked, let it be.....
Maybe we werent meant to be
From the start, yes......
From the beginning

Sent from: Lenovo A850+

Raya

You know you're older when the fact that ramadhan approachin gives you more excitement than syawal,
When a pair of kurung for first syawal is enough,
When raya sales doesn't caught your eyes to hustle in a crowd,
When there's no world war 3 when changing the curtains with your mom,
When you're obsessed about when, and where you should cook for raya dish,
And when you questioned yourself about syawal celebration in gaza,
Finally,  when abah said 'macam mana la org miskin sambut raya, mak bapak memang faham ikut kemampuan, tp anak-anak faham ke? Dulu abah beraya beli baju kemeja putih je sbb boleh buat pakai pergi sekolah. Ada bju baru jugak g skolah nnt.'
And u dont have any respond to that

Dan bila radio berkumandang lagu raya, kau masih diopis mengadap graf
Itu bukti kukuh

seriosly what the fuck happen to my blog? since when i need penis enlargement. i dont even own one

how to stop this? is this some kind of spam? virus?

selamat hari lahir

happy birthday atan!!! macam biasa sorak terlbih gembira, senyum terlebih gula, ketawa terlebih cara.
biasa lah
kawan sehati sejiwa, kawan tgk wayang sama sama
makan minum siang malam satu meja
apa salah kalau hari istimewa jadi terlebih mesra

tp atan tak pandang, senyum pun tak
dengar cerita kek surprise tak sentuh pun
kawan rumah ketuk surprise memekak lagu birthday kene hempas suruh diam

tp atan dah berubah
orang cakap sebab atan dah rajin pergi masjid
perempuan senyum dah tak pandang
kawan ajak makan tak nak bazir masa
kawan celebrate birthday tak payah layan, layan mata lagi pahala

atan dah rajin pergi majlis ilmu
atan pergi semayang jemaah dekat surau
atan tak kawan dengan perempuan

tapi kan atan,
kami ni manusia,
jaga la hubungan sesama manusia macam atan jaga hubungan dengan DIA
roomate atan merajuk atan tak sedar

takpelah atan,
tudung kami tak labuh
kami tak pergi majlis agama
gelak kami sama kuat
kami tak layak jadi kawan atan

tahniah atan dah menuju ke jalan NYA
jangan lupa doakan kami ye atan

never fail to make me smile

'awak nak kawen ke dgn perempuan dah tak virgin?'
'kalau dah jodoh, terima jelah.'
'hahahah. i dont accept that bullshit'
'yelah mana nak tau dara tu rasa macam mana. maaf, sbb saya tak pernah rasa. tatau la dekat mana. dgr org cerita macam selaput je. tah tah bini saya tu tertinggal dara tengah berenang ke, naik beskal ke, gimnastik ke. nk buat mcm mana. takan nak suruh dia kutip. tatau la macam mana rasa. maaf sebab saya belum kawen. so saya tatau.'



--and i expect holiest-than-thou answer.

---and im a strong believer of qadr anddd what u give u get back

sigh

penat baca anjing ni update status mengalahkan romeo. like seriously broh. stop la wehhh. dok tabur harapan sana sini. pas tu acah acah cinta yizlumik sangat. menyampah. and stop being so rare bajet hipster sgt, smpai avoiding cliche that make u sounds like stupid cliche. ape aku merepek entah.

tp itulah. paham lah sendiri.

AB Hashim

dia tak menangis waktu upacara pengebumian suami dia
anak lelaki dia menangis beria ria

orang ramai sedih tgk dia tak menangis sebab terlalu tertekan dan terkejut dengan kematian tersebut
orang ramai sedih tgk anak dia menangis sedih sebab kehilangan bapak dia

- bagi Si Isteri, suami dia mati bermaksud cuma satu nyawa yang dah sampai penghujung. not a big deal. dia tak sabar nak balik sambung tgk Ariana Rose.

-Bagi Si Anak, bapak dia mati kene tunjuk sedih. kalau tak orang akan syak kenapa dia tak menangis. supaya dia tak jadi suspek dalam kes bunuh bapak dia. pembunuhan pertama dia

--sebab nak bunuh orang senang, tapi bunuh bapak sendiri, kene ada keberanian



-----he never fails to make me over think

be the good girl you always have to be

aku tak makan mamak
aku tak pakai makeup
sometimes aku rasa nak cantik, aku pakai lip balm dan bedak

aku tak pakai baju branded
aku bukan saiz 2
sometimes aku rasa teringin, aku simpan duit baru belanja

aku tak alim
aku tak mengaji
sometimes aku teringat parents, lama sikit dekat sejadah buat saham untuk kubur

aku tak baik
aku tak rajin
sometimes aku terfikir penat mama balik kerja, aku buat jugak kerja sebab aku nak anak aku buat juge

aku tak sopan
aku bukan pengampu
tapi bila semua tak ada dulu, yang tinggal aku
aku yang tahu

so yeah.
aku yang baik
aku yang rajin
aku yang disayang
aku yang terbaik
aku yang pandai

sebab bila semua kata nak pergi,
siapa nak kira uban mereka yang jaga kita dari kecik?


haaaa--

askhole

pergi merata rata tanya orang punya opinion pasal LGBT
untuk apa
tujuan apekebenda pun taktau
cuma nak tau pendapat org
siap nak daripada islamic view
perghhhh, hebat pertanyaan tu

tapi objektif?
untuk apa?
nk buktikan apa?
untuk siapa?
untuk tunjuk apa?
untuk jatuhkan hukum pada siapa?


atau sekadar penyedap hati
yang kita buat ni tak dosa
sebab kalau taktau tak salah

ikut lah prinsip tu
tengok sampai mana boleh jalan
overall bukan itu je dosa keliling kau
dosa diri sendiri je dah tak terkira
sibuk nak hukumkan orang
jadi hakim maha bijaksana

little hey

tolong respon, kalau ada yang masih baca
niat untuk apa, tak perlu cerita
aku cuma nak tau masih ada orang di sebalik kaca
ye, kaca yang bercahaya
tapi bukan kaca cahaya aku sahaja

kaca cahaya di balik lain benua, negara, negeri
atau cukup
kalau cuma dinding yang pisahkan kita

sebab yang penting,
kita hirup udara sama
dan untuk aku tahu,
ada manusia bernyawa,
yang kisah lantang bicara
aku punya

pardon my grammar

you are one of a kind, and i:m proud to say that you are mine

stop regretting the past, and worrying about the future, instead you should enjoy the present

when i say i love you, it doesnt mean that i just want to start a conversation, it do come truly from my heart

be prepared for the worst, because we never know when it come. embrace the good time because we never realized when i'll come again (ini paling poyo)

thank you for everything. goodluck in your future undertakings. may we both success in our life (okay ini dah macam wish happy birthday)

when everything seems wrong , nobody seems right. come to me and i'll try to make it right with every sweat that i have. all you have to do is just ASK

the more you try, the harder it get. dont give up! bear in mind, once you get it, its all worth fighting for

you are my catalyst. the one that speed up my rate if reaction, because everytime i hear your nama my heart skip a beat. (ini comfirm baru lepas kelas chemistry)

----semua ini written during my matriculations. to the only person i cant believe we cant be 'justfriends' i believe i am a writer/journalist in my next life. if i could rewrite my path, i would go for the things i love, instead the things i need. or for the things my parents believe i should pursue.

Cerita

Idea.
Prolog

Bacaan yasin. Orang mati. Ada jenazah. Anak dua orang perempuan. Menangis. Sedih sungguh.
Suami. Ustaz/imam/alim. Sedih. Menangis dlm hati

Cerita pasal pedophilia.
Suami/lelaki/ayah
Alim alim kucing
Ustaz ajar ngaji kepada dua orang budak perempuan. Anak kepada seorang balu kematian suami
Tazkirah lepas hbs mengaii perhaps?

Jatuh hti dkt balu tu. kiah nama dia.
Amat kawen dgn kiah. Anak kiah. Lela dgn ani seorang dpt kasih syg sorg ayah.
Amat baik. Rajin lyn lela dgn ani. Bg crklat hadiah gula gula
Kiah bangga dapat suami mcm amat

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cannon

'adik, ambik meriam dalam kereta tu.'
''meriam apa? abah beli apa?'
'embah meriam nak meriam. hahahhahaha'
''kurang ajar.''

-_-

kadang aku pun tak paham humour bapak aku ni
takpelah. layankan aje

layankan aje dia cho cho cho train kaki aku depan tv
tak sengaja pijak selimut pepagi sebab cari kaki
tak sengaja tarik rambut waktu tengah tengok tv

axn

'kenapa ikut orang dating dengan khai dulu?'
''sebab khai ajak aman, aman ajak orang.''
''knapa tanya?''
'tade ape. saja'
''eh tade, tade bek cakaap terus. mesti ada sebab kenapa tetiba awak tanya''
'dah lupa la tu kan'
''lupa apa?''
'pasal kita sekarang. teringat, kalau lah awak tak ikut waktu tu. apalah nasib kita.'
''.............''

kalau orang tak ikut aman pergi pun kita tetap kenal
kalau awak tak break dengan khai dulu pun kita kenal
kalau orang tak mintak putus pun, kita masih macam ini

sebab orang yang mula dulu
i approached you
stop reminiscing. i've moved on. you should too

hey

aku rasa aku dah matang.

believe it or not, aku baru lepas delete post yg penuh perkataan fuck dan babi

yup, izni dah besar

Pelik

Pernah tiba-tiba kau tgh layan movie, nampak scene scene berdosa.
I don't know.
Mcm scene bunuh-bunuh, kurang ajar dkt mak bapak, or simply just pelakon tak pakai tudung
Then, u reminiscing yourself. Aku pernah buat macam tu jugak. Or even worse. Macam terdetik hati nak taubat dan dan tu jugak.

Aku pernah.
Tadi.
Tahu aku buat apa lepas tu?





Aku sambung je tgk korea tu.
Nope. Nope a glimpse of action of repent I take.
Maksudnya?


Hitam sangat kot hati ni.
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Resolution

So yeah. Little sharing session.
Assalamualaikum 2014. Watch me sweat you out ;)
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