Hipokrit

Manusia semua hipokrit.
Aku dah tak faham kenapa semakin lama aku kat sini semakin banyak manusia hipokrit aku kenal

Mana kebebasan bersura kalau aku kerap dihakimi oleh semua manusia
Kepada siapa aku nak bercerita
Banyak aku simpan dan pendam
Banyak aku belajar daripada kesalahan
Banyak buruk yang aku bagi bila aku bukak mulut
Aku kene diam
Diam diam dan diam
Biar mereka cakap
Salah benar aku jangan campur
Sebab tugas aku sekarang aku kene diam
Aku ingat aku diterima
Aku salah
atau aku yang sebenarnya tala

Kepada kau,
Orang lain pun rasa yang sama
Tapi bila aku bersuara aku salah
Sebab kau BESAR semua orang suka
Aku ni dibayangi sahaja
Kau rasa kau dah mengenali
Aku rasa aku dikhianati
Terima kasih

Tugas belum mula
Tapi drama ada je sentiasa
Bukan ni yang aku pinta
Belum watikah, letak jawatan pilihan aku yang utama
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farewell

So, another anak angkat program tomorrow. Tak eager langsung. In fact rasa macam tak nak pergi. Don’t exactly know why. But no hyperactive-happy-carefree mood is turn on right now.

Friends do come and  go, and the saddest part is when your so thought best friends isolate you. Pretty harsh right? I do sometimes thinks that, its my ego that drifts us apart. But I started not to care because just like others I do have feelings too. And just like others I also felt neglected too. And by the way, I’m not perasan bagus, bajet bagus, pandang rendah dekat korang, thought that you’re nuisance to me, or trying to be a leader. I  just want to finish up our groupwork assignments, and sadly there is no we in the assignment. Tapi nak buat macam mana, its my fault because being over, dramatic, stress up and what other fuck off feelings. So sorry is the most I can offer.

I don’t think that I can just fake a smile and act like nothing happen between us. And is the three of you I must face. And it feels unfair. So, I’m gonna sit here quietly, act like nothings happen and just carry on with my life. I wouldn’t lie, it does hurt me when I hear your laugh, when I saw you girls hanging around, cracking a joke and lots more. But I cant afford to just join you girls back. I’m not a vengeance person. I don’t hold any grudge against all of you I’m just hurt. And when I’m hurt I keep quiet and I back off.

About the other night, yes, you do not know me. You do not know me at all. If you do know me, you know how I work, you know my friends are my everything, I wouldn’t do or say anything intentionally to hurt my friends. And I am sensitive. I keen to put up a smile, to laugh hysterically, but later, late at night I call faiz, I spill everything to him and he comforts me. This cycle begins as days past. Surprised ? I hope not.

Farewell my friends. Truth be told, you girls are the best damn thing that keeps me going in this hectic university life. I do give up sometimes, I do lost my touch sometimes, I do felt lonely sometimes, you girls make it bearable for me to go through all the bullshit that encounter me in this university. Thanks for the strength even if its temporarily.  Salamualaik 

penat

penat nak post emo je.
so sempena test 2 marilah kita post benda menarik
seperti sepetang bersama gemok, hahahahaha

so, sepanjang perang dingin he is the one yang ada
and yang boleh nak bercerita
orang lain dekat kolej ni?
they just curious, not care.

not a single FUCK was given that day

thank you my bestfriend

Sorang

Tak mati rupanya makan sorang. Tak mati rupanya pergi memane sorg. Tak mati rupanya buat semua sorang.


Tapi aku tak boleh nak tipu sbab sunyi tu still terasa.
Teheeee.

Thanks kak maira for everything. I really need last night.
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Betul

Ye betul aku terasa
Ye betul aku sakit hati
Ye betul aku salah
Ye betul aku loser
Ye betul
Semua betul
Korang nampak seronok bertiga
Hehehe
Daripada aku terasa left out biarlah aku mcm ni
Best jugak

*aku tipu.
It hurts me seeing 3of you are happy without me. Because I used to be with you all. From dawn till dusk
Escape class, having meal, outing, movies etc etc.
Lotsa things we did together
And I felt that its not your lose by not having me. Right?
Its okay, friends come and go,
It sadden me

Terima kasih awak semua
Really shouldn't try socializing kan

Takpe, lesson learnt.
Be with anywhere, there are still no BFF shit whatsoever

Sorry sebab tak nak buat kerja last minute
Sorry being bossy
Sorry being your guys biggest embarassment
Sorry being a perfectionist
Sorry being fussy
Sorry being selfish
Sorry being everything that is ME

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Betul

Ye betul aku terasa
Ye betul aku sakit hati
Ye betul aku salah
Ye betul aku loser
Ye betul
Semua betul
Korang nampak seronok bertiga
Hehehe
Daripada aku terasa left out biarlah aku mcm ni
Best jugak

*aku tipu.
It hurts me seeing 3of you are happy without me. Because I used to be with you all. From dawn till dusk
Escape class, having meal, outing, movies etc etc.
Lotsa things we did together
And I felt that its not your lose by not having me. Right?
Its okay, friends come and go,
It sadden me

Terima kasih awak semua
Really shouldn't try socializing kan

Takpe, lesson learnt.
Be with anywhere, there are still no BFF shit whatsoever

Sorry sebab tak nak buat kerja last minute
Sorry being bossy
Sorry being your guys biggest embarassment
Sorry being a perfectionist
Sorry being fussy
Sorry being selfish
Sorry being everything that is ME

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I need this

I need a getaway like this. FAST!!!!!!!

Aku terasa

Ye betul aku terasa. No ones in their right mind tak akan terasa dengqn cara diorang. Susah ke diorang nak faham yang last minute work memakan diri sendiri. Salah ke aku nak yg terbaik untuk group kita. Like seriusly, mst la semua nak markah tinggi. Tapi kerja nak buat last minute. Busy lah, what other fuck excuses yang dorang bagi. Padahal sama sama involve any event yang korang busy sangat tu. kan? For god sake, aku memang sakit hati, and sumpah terasa. This is fucking not a group work. Sakit hati!!!!! Deadline tak pernah nak ikut. Might as well kau buat group korang sendiri kan fuck

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gambo

i oready attache de file of de picta